35.. me, seriously??

I turned the big 35 last week.. I still haven't wrapped my mind around the fact that I'm in my mid-30's now.  Honestly, I feel like I must be 25, but there have been recent moments when my body is telling me different.  Now, I'm rambling, must come with the territory.. right? 

Dan and I were in San Antonio to celebrate with my family..

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Grandma and Mom.. aren't they pretty?

Dan and Uncle Sonny

Frank and Vicki Lynn

Mom and Dad


I am so blessed, my cup runs over!

Saved by Grace

I remember asking Jesus into my heart when I was five years old.. I remember the church, Praise Temple, in Littlefield, Texas.  When I think back, I can recall standing outside of the church, telling my parents and their joy.  From that day forward, I have not lived with out sinning, but I have lived a life pressing forward and trying to honor God.  

We are all born into this world with what the Bible calls a sin nature, but when we make the decision to follow Christ, to repent of our sins, then we are called the righteous, this does not mean that we are without sin, but rather we are called to live a life that turns from sin.  There is not one person that has made the decision to follow Christ that has not been tempted to sin or given into sin.  Living for Christ is a daily choice!  Being a Christian isn't just a label, you are not a Christian just because you go to church, belong to an denomination,  or know the Bible.  NO, we are Christians because we follow the life that Christ lived in the 33 years here on this earth and because we have acknowledged his sacrifice and repented of our sins.  He died for our sins. When we repent of our sins, we are forgiven and made righteous or made in right standing with Him. Can we stand with Him if we are sinners? 

Romans 10:9-11(New King James Version) says, 

9 Thatif you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. 

10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 

11 For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame.”  

If we are still "sinners" we should be ashamed, but if we've been forgiven and we believe what the Bible says, we should not be ashamed. Webster's Dictionary defines salvation as: deliverance from the power and effects of sin. We are forgiven only by grace,  only by the blood that Jesus shed at the Cross.

I am certain that I, just like anyone else, will sin again before the end of my time on this earth. We all make the choice to live by how the Bible instructs us to live or to live a life that opposes that instruction. We fail, maybe even over and over, but when we come to God and repent (Webster's dictionary: to turn from sin and dedicate oneself to the amendment of one's life), then we are forgiven. 

Romans 3:23-27(New Living Translation) says: 

23 For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God's glorious standard.

24 Yet God, with undeserved kindness, declares that we are righteous. He did this through Christ Jesus when he freed us from the penalty for our sins.

25 For God presented Jesus as the sacrifice for sin. People are made right with God when they believe that Jesus sacrificed his life, shedding his blood. This sacrifice shows that God was being fair when he held back and did not punish those who sinned in times past,

26 for he was looking ahead and including them in what he would do in this present time. God did this to demonstrate his righteousness, for he himself is fair and just, and he declares sinners to be right in his sight when they believe in Jesus.

My hope is that if you look at my life, you will see someone that is working at building a relationship with Christ, a girl just trying to live a life that honors God. I am not perfect, nor will I ever be perfect on this earth.  Heaven is the only place without sin.. and until I get there, I'm going to look at the example that Christ set for me, be grateful for His sacrifice for my sin, and live a victorious, righteous life because that is what He desires for me!

For My Dad

Thank you, Dad, for seeing a baby girl who needed a family and not thinking twice before you brought me home.

Thank you, Dad, for wanting to be the best you could be for me and making the decision to follow God with your whole heart.

Thank you, Dad, for making sacrifices, sometimes working two or three jobs to give me a Christian School Education, where a firm spiritual foundation was laid.

Thank you, Dad, for the time you spent with me...playing with Barbies, reading to me, taking me shopping.

Thank you, Dad, for encouraging me to go to Bible School, a choice that would solidify and focus my relationship with Jesus.

Thank you, Dad, for praying me through so many years of being a single young woman. You were my spiritual covering and your prayers and love protected me.

Thank you, Dad, for giving me the most beautiful wedding that a girl could ask for.. you really did make all my dreams come true.


Thank you, Dad, for being such a man of Faith and Grace. This journey that we've been on since January, has tested us far beyond the limits we thought we had. I am blessed to watch you care and love Mom.


I love you more than words can say...

Lay It Down

How long have I been so focused on my own dreams that I didn't have

room for The Destiny and Purpose designed for me? The sad thing is.. I

haven't realized before that I've been thinking like this.

I had a conversation with my husband recently... At the end of it, I

clearly heard God tell me to lay down MY dreams and with it the burden

that I've been DRAGGING. In that moment, I felt peace. But immediately

following that peace, the enemy tried to bring heartbreak, fear, even

resentment over my laid-down dreams. I had to make a choice in that

moment, to trust that the plans that God has for me are much greater

than the ones that I've had a death grip on for as long as I can

remember. If My Lord asks of me, I have no other desire than to honor

HIM.

Yes, for moment, I felt like Abraham sacrificing Issac. If I remember

correctly, God only asked for the willingness to obey, not the actual

sacrifice. But the Bible has many stories that required some sort of

sacrifice, laying down desires that were not just a test, but a command.

My prayer is that as I trust the

Lord to lead me in my journey, that He will use this broken vessel and

mold me, shape me, use me, and that I will ultimately bring honor and

glory to His Name.

I had a fabulous weekend with my friend.. we ate, shopped, and caught up on each other's lives!

Forgivness, Friends, and Real Housewives

My husband likes to tease me about the reality shows that I watch..before you gasp--- I'll just admit to you the shows that I watch: all of the Bravo Real Housewives shows, Guiliana and Bill, Tori and Dean.. I'm reality show junkie. I think it's the fact that I am a people watcher. Seriously, give me a cup of coffee and a good seat, and I'll sit and watch people forever. It's interesting to see how people interact, to wonder what people are really like. I know that these shows are a bit campy, but to me, it's like being a fly on the wall. Of course, my hubby thinks they are all absurd! I know that some of you out there know exactly what shows I'm talking about because you watch them, too!

For the last several weeks, I've been watching the Real Housewives of NYC.. and oh goodness, I have been bothered. There are two friends, that in previous seasons, were the best of best friends. During this past year, they had a major falling out and seemingly didn't address the issues, until one of them thought they were past the point of no return. I've watched this feeling like I know them (one of the reasons that my sweet hubby thinks I'm a little silly for watching), but come on, friends out there- Do you ever put your self in these situations? How many of us have disagreed with a close friend and wondered if forgiveness was an option. The TRUTH is written here- Mark 11:25-26 "If you have anything against someone, forgive—only then will your heavenly Father be inclined to also wipe your slate clean of sins."

You see, when we are wronged, and we ALL have been at some point, we dwell on the hurt, the misunderstanding, the pain caused by someone we've trusted. What we forget in these times, is that at some point we have probably inflicted the same hurt or pain on someone else. The hurt usually seems so one-sided that we think we have the choice to not forgive what has been done to us. The Bible clearly says that we don't have that choice. We MUST forgive to have the Father forgive our sins. If you're like me, you are glad to know that there is grace for my missteps, my SIN. Let's face it... we are all in need of GRACE, the Son of God, and we should never take for granted all that we have been forgiven!

I recently had a friend come back into my life, after a time where I will admit that I held on to a grudge. I can't really tell you where she was with her process of forgiveness, but I know that I held onto my end for way too long. We reconnected and I was so blessed by her friendship. It was good to remember what made us friends, initially and to recount the great times that we had shared. The forgiveness helped us move forward and opened the door for us to rebuild a great friendship.

Always remember what brought you together, what made you friends.. it was something special. Measure someone else by the same measure that you'd hope to be measured. We must remember that we're all human, we all hurt others at some point, and we ALL need to be forgiven at some point. Most of all remember that Jesus died to forgive us and we hadn't even sinned yet. Yet, He made to ultimate sacrifice and cleared the slate.


PS.. in my wildest dreams, maybe those two NYC Housewives will read this and rethink their friendship. A girl can hope, can't she?!

Deep Thoughts On A Snowy Day

I'm sitting here at my desk with a fresh cup of coffee.. honestly, I should be doing something a little more productive. Have you ever had so much on your mind that you really couldn't focus on all those things on your list? Believe me, right now, there is so much to be done that I don't know where to begin. Dan and I have some big decisions ahead of us, but I've talked to lots of my friends and it seems as though many people are in that same boat right now. Along with decisions, there seems to come the struggle with keeping peace, joy, and grace in our outlook. Yesterday, I had the thought.."Too bad you can't buy the fruit of the Spirit at Target." (Target has everything else, doesn't it) Silly, I know, but I wish it were that easy. Reality is that you just can't find love, joy, peace, patience and all of those other qualities on Aisle 3 at Target.

2 Thessalonians 3:16 AMP Now may the Lord of peace Himself grant you His peace (the peace of His kingdom) at all times and in all ways [under all circumstances and conditions, whatever comes]. So my realization was that peace really is that easy, it's reaching up, and accepting what God has already given us. What I need to do is simply set aside my cares, fears, and needs..then just let the peace of God fill my heart. One of the most amazing things that I have discovered is that when you start walking in just one of these gifts, when you accept what is already provided by our Heavenly Father.. then all of the other things come right along. His Word tell us that He has given us HIS peace at all times for all circumstances. So I remind myself that He sees my needs, He knows what I need, He knows every single care in my life.. AND, God has every answer. Waiting can be the hard part, but choosing to stay at peace, not fretting that God won't hear my prayers.. but rather trusting and remembering that Numbers 23:19 says- God is not man, one given to lies, and not a son of man, changing his mind. Does he speak and not do what he says? Does he promise and not come through? Yes, He will come through .. and until then, I'm off to tackle that list!!